Where the fuck am I?

It's been awhile.

Hello.

I wish I could say that I snuck off to some island resort and have been laying on some golden sanded beach sipping Mai Tais, but no....I've just been moping around my house for the past couple of weeks trying to feel better. Long story, so I won't even go there. But you know, I feel like I'm one of those images in your rearview mirror that gets smaller and smaller and pretty soon it disappears. Or shall I say, my life feels like that right now. I don't even know what moments to enjoy, what to cherish and what to savor but before I can react, those moments just vanish -- just like that motorcycle guy in my rearview mirror above. Everything in my life seems to meld together into a gray unfeeling mass right now.

When did I become so gray about life?

Regardless to say, nothing much has transpired in this oh-so-exciting life of mine in these past few weeks unless of course, you want me to post like oh...60 photos of my niece or something. Speaking of the dainty lil Jasmine flower....

Someone tell me, this doesn't look like a 4 month old does it? Of course being the proud Aunt that I am, I must tell you that she's uber cute and smart as a whip. But the best thing about Jasgrrl are her fung jao (stewed chicken feet a la dim sum) hands. They are so plump and chubby. Also, tell me if I'm wrong but.....doesn't Jasmine's hair look like that cartoon guy from Bugs Bunny, Gossamer? Hahaa. Ok, her parents won't find that funny, but I do. ;P Thought you'd all like to see how Jasmine is progressing these days. I've been compulsively buying her lots of books and toys like an aunt on crack. Oh well, there's only one niece, so why not?

Anyway, the job search is going.....going....but you know, it's dismal like the other gray areas of my life. There's nothing more pathetic than companies requiring you to fill out all these application forms to then have them end up never touching a desk or another human's hands and going straight to the reject incinerator. Alright, I have been looking at jobs that I'm overqualified for but that's because I'm trying to look for something part time and as we all know, part time usually equates to clerical high school diploma work. Although that's not always the case, I then don't qualify for other jobs that require special degrees and certifications because I've never been in that field. And although I don't mind working at say, a bookstore, I'm sure my obsessive compulsive self will have a nervous breakdown from seeing the magazine section fucked up day after day. So, the search continues....

I guess life isn't so gray really. All those images in your rearview mirror of life are actually right in front of you anyway if you just look for them. It's probably all backed up waiting for you to wade through everything.

Yeah, I got a lot of shit to wade through.

Eh, I have a urinary tract infection today, so I'll end it here.

I hate UTIs.

Time to pee.

I'm out.