excerpt again
may 23, 2003
another excerpt:
last time during dinner, you mentioned to me about the watch you were wearing. i've forgotten what it looked like until i saw it. the feeling was surreal, to see something that i gave someone but it's something that was in my possession for a very short time before i handed it off to that person. i doubt i could recognize the watch again but that evening, you pointed it out on your wrist and it was as though i was looking at a gift you received from another friend. not from me. it had to sink in a bit before i could connect the idea that that watch had been chosen by me. there was a time when i stood over a counter looking at all the watches, couldn't deciding on which one and finally i settled on one that i thought would look the best. i hoped in the back of mind that you would like it. that you would wear it and selfishly speaking.....think of me. i thought that it was odd that you pointed out the watch to me during dinner. what were you trying to say? i know we don't speak in words but rather in allusions. and now today, i remember that girl standing there at the counter looking at the watches hoping she bought the right one.
