E
december 30, 2004
sometimes i encounter friends in the most unique of circumstances. call it fate. call it luck. call it good fortune. call it god's will. but i'm lucky to have a friend i really am inspired by and can talk freely to. most people will say that i am pretty easy to talk to or easy to get along with but for me to really speak honestly about things to or to speak what i truly fear, what i truly feel - it's rare that i do so. from my end. to let my guard down and to let my true face be exposed - only very few will ever see it. but i know when i do find certain people that i can be myself with - it's a natural thing to just let the words fall forth with ease.
thanks E. you've helped me more than you know.
about a week after snowie was killed this year, our entire tank of 12+ year old kois all died one day. each one of them instantaneously vomited blood and then turned over dying what looked like, a very painful death. we cannot explain what happened. the only theory we can surmise is that all our pets went with snowie after she passed on. and then a few days after the giant kois died, our smaller tank of fluorescent kois died as well. didn't they say things happen in 3's?
finally after 8 months of looking at an empty tank, fishpimp was so kind to extend me her services and got me a whole new tank of baby kois direct from singapore. we got a couple golden ones, a few pearly white ones, 2 black ones, some mixed color ones and some red & white ones. they are so small compared to the ones we had before. fishpimp later told us that the ones we lost probably would have been about $800-$1000+ each. ouch. that means we lost about $12,000+ worth of fish in a matter of a few minutes.
the new ones have been enjoying their new home. i tried to capture them on camera but they won't stay still.
thanks so much fishpimp. :)
ocassionally, i have korean food for lunch. i usually plan it on days when i don't have to be stuck in some meeting with a bunch of people at close proximity. or better yet, i eat it on those days when i don't want people to be fuckin bothering me and instead breathe heavily on them. bibim kooksoo is one of those things i love to eat. it's cold noodles with vegetables mixed with a spicy sauce & sesame oil. the photo above shows it at its pre-spicy state. man, i eat so much korean food, i think my stomach has a hole burned into it from all the spicy foods.
i got a phone call today. out of the blue. from a friend. a friend who recently wrote me a very touching snail mail letter. when i received the letter a couple weeks back, the envelope enclosed two letters - one from her and one from her fiance who is also my friend. we lost contact in recent years but was elated to hear about their marriage plans and their personal invite to their wedding next year.
to hear a person's voice and to really connect to another human on the other end of the phone solidifies a lot of things. i often times think my friendships online is missing that additional component. the part where emails turn into phone calls and phone calls turn into face to face encounters. but it's moments like today when my friend was on the other line that i realize how amazing the friendships i've forged from this website are. i never seem to realize my role in other people's lives. i just think i'm a faceless enigma out there churning out these entries from time to time.
