good riddance bye 2005
december 31, 2005
one thing good about having archived over 5 years of entries is to actually go back and read them and to rediscover things that i had forgotten. perhaps they were entries of outings with friends, acquiring certain material goods, traveling to far away places and oh lord, the food entries. but the ones that really make me go "man......!" are the entries about my feelings in a certain point in my life. maybe it happened to be a bad day. a good day (those are usually far and few in between). a sad and sorrowful day. a day when things aren't going particularly well. a day when i want to scream up at the sky. a day when i'm enjoying the simple pleasures of life. those are usually the entries where i am so thankul to have this journal to keep track of the things that have gone on in my life. and trust me, i read my archives from time to time just to remind me of how i got to today, december 31st 2005.
this year has definitely been one of those years where my writing has taken a backseat to my life. the journal was neglected so that i could pay more attention to my own needs. i wished i could have written here more this year because there will be many things i've already forgotten and will sorely feel ashamed of not jotting down. both happy and sad events, joyful and depressing days, it's important to me to document all aspects of my life and i feel that this year, i've lost a lot of that history.
as much as i do regret having set my site on the back burner for most of the year, i am glad that i redirected a lot of energy to becoming a stronger and better person. which ultimately in the end makes me more happy, peaceful and stable. there are many days of this year that i do not want to revisit. it's hard to even look back on those days without feeling fear, stress and complete dejection. but then i think about how far i've come in 365 days and what a change it was from what i was feeling a year ago.
the human spirit is so resilient to life's everchanging scenarios. we sometimes let the troubles in our minds and hearts douse out that flame that keeps our spirit glowing. i truly thought this year i had lost myself forever.
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anyway...just some highlights & lowlights of this year. i hope 2006 will be my year. it is afterall the year of the dog. MY year. ruff.
january: began ballroom dancing. ate shitloads of korean food and hence many unhappy episodes with hemorrhoids.
february: aiyah.net turned 5. lost about 17 pounds since the beginning of the year (crazy shit). started taking martial arts, jeet kune do/kali. had my 35th birthday bash at the end of the month. dyed my hair blue.
march: turned 35 (gulp!!). got my first iPod. my niece was born on the 23rd, same day as my sister's birthday.
april: attended first bridal shower of the year. reflected on 1st anniversary of snowie's death.
may: made a trip to morro bay and cambria up the california coast. colored my hair magenta. met up with several out of town friends from the bay area and new york. TGILW got in a bad car accident. started training at least 3 times a week at martial arts. attended g&v's wedding.
june: project at work went into full swing which then sucked up my life for the rest of the year. attended second bridal shower of the year. CM moves to the west coast. found out that i had endometreosis.
july: attended a hollywood bowl event for the first time. tore a tendon in my right shoulder during martial arts. started physical therapy. threw a surprise birthday party for TGILW at m grill.
august: went to san diego for a visit. knitted my first baby blanket and went to first baby shower of the year. attended third bridal shower of the year. TGILW turned 38.
september: in-laws arrived to stay for 2 months (haven't written about this at all). went to the na leo and keali'i reichel concert at the hollywood bowl. worked my ASS OFF this month, practically lived there in my cubicle. took mom to a ballet rendition of raise the red lantern with what little time i had to have a life outside of work.
october: saw na leo in concert again at the grove in anaheim. still working my ASS OFF. barely had time to come up for air. attended l&c's wedding. dressed up as sally from nightmare before christmas for halloween.
november: celebrated my wedding anniversary. got a new computer and laptop. went to see king tut at the LACMA. came down with a bad ear & sinus infection that just wouldn't go away. took a trip to hawaii and tried out a lot of new places to eat. attended m&s's wedding in o'ahu. jasmine turned 4.
december: knitted second baby blanket ever and went to second baby shower of the year. went to disneyland for work christmas party. snowbie turned 2.
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thank you to everyone who still comes back to read my stuff daily, even though they often times arrive at a site that hasn't been updated in awhile. thanks to those who email and comment and share your thoughts with me. thanks for just taking time out of your daily life to partake in mine. i hope to have many more entries in this coming year.
good riddance 2005. it's been nice knowing you.
currently listening to: maki ohguro, chotto
