dear friend 1
january 14, 2005
the thousandth dream -
arenadi
about 5 years ago when i first started this site, i made a good friend online. he wrote entries that captured not only your mind but also your emotions. his words touched so many of us in ways that's inexplicable. but not only was he a great writer, storyteller, dreamweaver but he was also an amazing designer. i've missed him much in these past few years. so i'm very glad that he's returned once again. some of you may remember him as archangel-x, some of you may know him as MC.
like a phoenix rising from the ashes, the thousandth dream.
dear friend,
this has just been one of those weeks again. there's been a lot on my mind. there's been a lot weighing me down. there's been a lot that i just can't put into words. it's just a solid feeling i know that's knotted up inside. at times i am just at a dead end, other times i am free falling with nothing to land on. i don't know how to save myself anymore.
although i know i've written you, you may not know the words to say to me. you may not know where to begin comforting me. you may not know where to begin helping me heal. i don't need anything really except only for you to be there for me. to perchance listen when i want to express my thoughts, my feelings, my state of mind.
i realize now that there's nothing anyone can do for me. this all must come from within. i don't mean to scare you and i don't mean to frighten you away. it's just that there's no place to turn to right now. so i must forge ahead even if i don't know the way.
winnie
