baby g
january 24, 2005
congratulations to arin & jay on the birth of baby g! isn't he the cutest little bundle you ever saw? and i love the hawaii print boppy he's leaning on. who says boys can't have pink things? unbeknownst to them, i've been knitting baby g a baby blanket. it's my first baby blanket ever so i'm not sure how it will end up looking but i guess it will be ok. well, aside from the fact that i went into my bedroom one day and found snowbie annihilating the yarn that is. she usually knows not to get into my yarn but i left her alone for a bit with the super soft fuzzy yarn and that's what happened. and 4 hours later, i finally unraveled the knotted mess. shit. talk about slowing down your project.
i'll post a photo once i'm done and hopefully i'll be able to give the present to the parents in person. :)
i'm feeling sore today. i did 4 miles on the life fitness machine yesterday and i couldn't stop myself. then i worked out on my abs (yes, the abs underneath the layer of fat) for awhile. although i'm not sore in my legs at all - my abs are a different story. i feel like someone punched me in the gut. oh - the price of working out and getting healthy i say.
wait. before you think this is my new year's resolution and laugh in my face when i slack off, it's actually a part of my bigger diabolical plan to overhaul my life. yes, again.
i recently began upping my meds to double the dosages and although there are some not so good days/nights, it's something i MUST do. i could feel the symptoms surfacing again on the lowest dosage and i should have moved on up a long ass time ago. but with work commitments, general malaise and the fear of horrid side effects, i put it off for awhile. i've tried to go on it from time to time but it always gives me the same ole shit (literally & figuratively) and i always end up backing it down to the minimum dose. but this time, i really have to do it. if i don't, i will never get better.
and i want to get better.
so in deciding that this must be done, it's crucial to include an exercise routine of sorts. i think a couple years ago when i was breaking my body by working out everyday without any results (thanks to my jacked up hormones no less), i became soured by the fact that so much effort went into working out without any changes coming about. my mentality towards working out became lackadaisical. it was a mind bender really and took away from my usual love of exercising & breaking a good hard sweat.
but this time, it should be different as i'll be on the meds and eating well. so we'll see how it goes.
my plan though is to work out at the gym 3 times a week (cardio & strength training), 1-2 hours of ballroom dancing a week and 1 more form of activity that i haven't solidified yet. even if this means that i spend less time with friends and family, it's something that i need to readjust my life for. because if i don't fix this pcos issue, it's going to bring about a whole host of other health issues as i get older. the problems with pcos is already bad enough and i can't imagine it getting even more out of control.
so let's hope i can keep this up and see some difference in my health this year. my goal (and yes there is one) is to be free of my meds by the end of 2006.
speaking of ballroom dancing, i had a private class tonight. it's amazing how much better private instruction is. you don't feel like a nimwit for not being able to follow what everyone else in class is doing. and the one on one is so tailored to what you want to learn and what your objective to learning ballroom dancing is. when the instructor asked, i said that i wanted to learn a "social dance for fun and to relieve stress". it would also be nice to be able to dance some of this stuff at weddings etc.
my instructor taught me the rumba, cha cha and foxtrot. so far, i like the cha cha the best although after a few spins, i felt my vertigo coming on. i dig the rumba too and it looks good. the instructor insisted that i MUST learn at least the basic foxtrot as that is what you will usually dance to stuff like frank sinatra. not really sure when i will dance to frank sinatra but.....o ----k.
afterwards, i went to michael's to buy some art supplies and as i was in the aisle choosing some frames, i couldn't help but dance in my own little private space.
i'm sure some people saw a crazy chick dancing the cha cha by herself.
