valentine inscription
january 27, 2005
^ rockin the green again but this time in tie dye fashion and in hot pink
hipster underwear too *roar*
hard to believe we're nearing the end of january already. from all that has transpired in my life in the past oh..27 days, i have a feeling this year is going to be one intense ride. i thought that by now, at my age, i would have figured out some of the mysteries in life but in reality one never really is prepared for anything - even if they think they are.
at times like this, i wish i could be a bit more forthcoming with my life but i don't even know where to begin, how to put things down onto "paper" nor know how to express myself. actually, i'd much rather stay silent and look within than to pour out my soul since i'm feeling quite conflicted these days. but i know one day i'll look back to this time in my life and see that it's made me the person i have become. hopefully, that person will be someone i will admire.
i haven't been in the socializing mood lately so i've been keeping a rather low profile from nearly every group in my life. even at work, i've been spending much of my lunch times alone running errands and such.
i took a jaunt to target today to get some stuff and as i passed by the card section, my attention was drawn to all the pink and red cards displayed. oh yeah, it's that time of year again. that time of year to remind those who are alone that they are really ... alone. perhaps it's all those years spent without a boyfriend and alone that's never really made me enjoy this day. even when i eventually did date and was attached, i never really bought into the whole flowers and chocolate candies and red heart dealio. and those stuffed animals are so hideous. of course i rebelled and poohpoohed those who oohed and aahed over this one day of the year but secretly inside, i wished i could get excited & feel all mushy about valentine's day.
but valentine's day is coming up again. so i stopped my cart and stood there perusing through all the different cards displayed. i haven't really looked at a valentine's card in YEARS. it's hard to believe how many different types of cards there are for valentine's day: love, romantic interest, friend, special friend, humor, parents, children, etc. some of the cards are really expressive to the point of being irritating. some are dripping and oozing with love. others are "safe" and not too overbearing. a few were just too simple.
finding that right card is nearly impossible. no two stories are the same. no two couples fit the same mold. no one particular lovey dovey phrase can appease all. i think we all should resort back to 3rd grade when we had to make our own valentines out of doilies and red & pink construction paper. that way, we can write our own perfect inscription to give to our valentine. i think my inscription this year will go something like this:
i've got issues
i've got baggage
i don't have any money
i'm not remotely attractive
but if you still want to be with me
then you got balls
happy valentine's day
i know....i should work at hallmark.
^ webcamming the green tie dye
