6 years & counting
february 01, 2006
happy 6th anniversary aiyah.net!
this year i started on my 3rd page of archives with 3 years of writing on each page. it still amazes me how much i've jotted down and retained on this website over the years. i still cannot believe that after all these years, i'm still writing here. at first, i thought it was a passing fancy or some new thing i wanted to try out. but as i began to write more and more, i couldn't stop. i think i shared more than my share of happiness, heartache and frustrations here. it surely has evolved into something that has become a part of me, just like that well worn dog eared journal that some of you secretly keep under your bed...except mine is on the internet for the world to see.
along the way, i've lost and gained readers. some of you have been reading from the beginning, others are rather new and may not understand all these secret code terms i write about but irregardless, i appreciate everyone who has stopped by to follow along in my life.
i was counting to myself the other day, all the doctors appointments and testing i've gone to this year thus far. let me remind you, we're only 31 days into the year. even i'm amazed at the # of appointments i've been to. it's freakin abnormal:
3 primary physician visits
1 ct scan
1 anaphylactic ER visit including a head+chest xray done
1 blood test
1 teeth cleaning & xray
1 neurologist visit
1 immunologist visit
1 otologic allergist visit
1 audiologist visit
1 opthamologist visit
9 different medications taken
i think that's more than most people do in a few years.
so what's going on?
after my latest anaphylactic episode, my otologic allergist decided i should visit an uber special immunologist out near ucla medical center. he ordered a few immunological blood tests done on me but i haven't received the results yet. he also suggested that i start on two diferent inhalers (astelin & qvar) to keep my allergies, vertigo and sinus issues at bay. after being on them for over a week now, i feel a lot better. but from his medical point of view, he doesn't think i really have any immunological problems and that i'm really just a seriously allergic person. oh.lucky.me. but of course we won't know for sure until we get the blood work results back. and i just have to becareful with what i take/eat/come into contact with from hereon. so much for living on the edge and spontaneously globetrekking all the whilst ingesting every food possible out there.
ever since last october, i started experiencing strange pains in my face. i wasn't sure if this weird pain that i've been experiencing around and under my eyes are a residual effect of the sinus issues, so i went to see a neurologist. he thinks i may have migraines and suggested that we cover all the bases and see an opthamologist as well since there's a lot of pressure under the eyeball. hell, while we're getting everything checked out, let's not leave anything off the list right? i mean, i've come this far to find out the root of my problems, why not go to a few more doctors! i'm still awaiting the report of the opthamologist though.
i went back to my otologic allergist yesterday and she checked me out again. i think they are just concerned that i'm just one fucked up case that they can never heal. her actual words were winnie is one of our "tier one" patients. does this mean i get some perks for having X number of anaphylactic shocks? do i get free laker tickets or something? they have decided to knock back my allergy injections to a dosage that i can tolerate. the last thing they want is for me to get anaphylaxis so soon again.
shit, even i'm tired of dealing with the mess that i call....me. i've come to accept that i'm super allergic to a ton of things and probably to a ton more that i don't know about. those are really the ones i'm afraid of....as people who are ignorant don't really know how deadly allergies are. they think it's all sniffly noses and watery eyes. i hardly get those symptoms at all. no siree bob, i just get the life or death types of symptoms.
when did my body begin turning on me like this? and will someone just tell me what the hell is wrong with me?
i can't stand it anymore.
currently listening to: danielle paris, i can't stand it
