end note
december 31, 2007
today being the last day of the year is typically filled with a lot of thoughts and reflection on the previous 365 days. i myself am not quite sure where exactly the past year went. i can't recall anything truly concrete about this year. it's as if the days melded into the next and we're already on the horizon of 2008. it's as if i wore gray colored glasses and nothing stood out or seemed significant about the year. of course it's also probably due to the mood i'm in as i'm sitting here listening to music and typing this up.
my mind is befuddled with thoughts of my future, snowbie's health, project DOMO, the many projects on my plate and perhaps fear of what will 2008 unfold itself to be. i'm somehow experiencing a sort of anxiety that's just weighing my head and my soul down. and it's most definitely not the way i'd like to start off the new year at all.
but....i'm just feeling REALLY overwhelmed. partially it's a feeling of viewing this past year as being a waste and that there were no real achievements. and the other part is feeling that i need to make something of myself in 2008 to make up for it. i mean, i couldn't even keep this website updated for most of the year, let alone do anything huge or worthy of mentioning.
maybe i'm expecting too much of myself and putting too much unnecessary pressure to "just be".
i think i just need to breathe and not worry anymore.
man, what a depressing note to end the year with. i think i will feel more balanced once i can get thru this first week of january.
currently listening to: silence
